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I've been trying to get some of this down since last Thursday - A little less than a happy high
komos
komos
I've been trying to get some of this down since last Thursday
Whatever high that's been carrying me the past couple of weeks has mostly evaporated. In its place, I'm finding the low-grade depression/anxiety that seems to be my baseline standard. Sometimes it seems like doubt and self-recrimination are old, familiar friends; no matter how long we're apart, we can always take up right where we left off.

Voice In My Head: Hello my friends! Come in, come in! No, don't worry at all about taking off your Wellies. Just go on and track mud and whatnot throughout. It's my own fault for trying to muck the place out in the first place.

Needless to say, I've been in better moods. Over the past couple of days, I keep finding little things to piss me off, but nothing so much as the Mary Kate & Ashley Vampire Collection currently on display in Macy's windows. Nothing accessorizes with a cute black and white plaid mini like some black lace and a red crushed velvet jacket... except maybe a jaunty beret! Fall's new look: perky goth.

VIMH: Don't you think the things you obsess over are a little, you know, weird?

O_o

I've some things in the works that promise a pleasant distraction, at least. The peach wine is in primary, and I've high hopes for it. There are three gallons working this time, fermenting with a Riesling yeast strain. I've a friend coming into town, and there's Nouvelle Vague and possibly Cirque's Corteo in the immediate future.

VIMH: Still can't shake it, though, can you?

Gah, no.

I'd recommend finding a good Gruyere and having it around the house at all times. It's a versatile cheese that's as happy being served on it's own or grated for accent on most anything you can think of.

Also, I'd like your thoughts on papazan chairs.

Seriously, folks... sorry for making myself scarce.
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canonfire From: canonfire Date: September 14th, 2006 03:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
are you busy this weekend?
komos From: komos Date: September 14th, 2006 04:04 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm currently sitting with Tinkles and Scooter, and the venerable Gustavus Howler. Plans for early October?
futurenurselady From: futurenurselady Date: September 14th, 2006 04:04 pm (UTC) (Link)
I have a VIMH too. It says things like:

"what are you doing here? you're nothing like any of these people."
"that's it, run away from the math class...scared of failing, are we?"
"these people won't help you, why should they, it's not like they have to."
"crying in the disabilities office? they're going to have you comitted."

I just say to it:

"How do you know? Are you psychic?"
"Refusal to fail is not fear. Changing strategy isn't running away."
"These people will help me, why shouldn't they, it's not like I don't need help."
"I'm sure other people have cried in here without being comitted. Look at all the boxes of tissues for crying out loud!"

There's nothing wrong with talking back to TVIYH. Just make sure you don't send the responsed through your vocal cords. 8)
komos From: komos Date: September 14th, 2006 04:06 pm (UTC) (Link)
I pretty regularly mutter to myself. I'm getting ready to be that crazy old man at the end of the street.
inahandbasket From: inahandbasket Date: September 14th, 2006 04:10 pm (UTC) (Link)
I LUV papazan chairs, but the prosicated doesn't.
so we don't have one.
yet.


We're plotting a pumpkin beer again this year, hopefully to improve upon last years' dismal attempt. have you tried one of them? have any insight?


We should get together again sometime soon!
clayrobeson From: clayrobeson Date: September 14th, 2006 04:22 pm (UTC) (Link)
We used to call our p-chair "The Womb" cause it was so comfy.
suki_fleet From: suki_fleet Date: September 14th, 2006 04:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
mmmm peach wine!

Tried the wine making thing a while ago but it all ended up bitter...and somehow brown.

As for the papazan chairs, they look kinda comfortable, as if they require curling into, catlike.
komos From: komos Date: September 14th, 2006 05:59 pm (UTC) (Link)
There are a few things that can happen to the wine as its working that could cause that. It could be that there was a bug that came in with the fruit that overpowered the yeast, or it might be that it got exposed to oxygen at a crucial stage. Did you go with peaches, or was it some other fruit?
watchamacallit From: watchamacallit Date: September 14th, 2006 04:29 pm (UTC) (Link)
Papasan chairs are so comfortable but have too much of a college dormitory vibe so I obstain.
komos From: komos Date: September 14th, 2006 06:00 pm (UTC) (Link)
Aren't they a tad expensive for the standard dorm setup?
bbbsg From: bbbsg Date: September 14th, 2006 04:40 pm (UTC) (Link)
hate the papasan. for the college look & because they're a pain in the ass for anyone not able-bodied to get in and out of. but i'm biased that way.
komos From: komos Date: September 14th, 2006 06:00 pm (UTC) (Link)
Fair enough, though truth be known, I don't have the easiest time negotiating them either.
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komos From: komos Date: September 14th, 2006 06:01 pm (UTC) (Link)
Sounds a little like me. ;P
esmerel From: esmerel Date: September 14th, 2006 04:59 pm (UTC) (Link)
papasan - great for curling up in. If you're not a big person. They're kind of fragile, hard to get out of.
komos From: komos Date: September 14th, 2006 06:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm not sure I appreciate the rattan aesthetic, either.
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komos From: komos Date: September 14th, 2006 06:05 pm (UTC) (Link)
What if there's no bottom?
learnedax From: learnedax Date: September 14th, 2006 05:32 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hey, cool, I'm going to see Corteo next Thursday; report is that it's great.
komos From: komos Date: September 14th, 2006 05:51 pm (UTC) (Link)
I saw it (complete with Tapis Rouge treatment) when it opened in San Jose. It easily rivals Quidam as my favorite show, and the staging is by far the best I've seen from Cirque. Solid, solid work.
transcribe From: transcribe Date: September 14th, 2006 06:59 pm (UTC) (Link)
i too have one of those voices. i recommend squashing it with regularity until it has broken vocal chords. it knows nothing. it's just everyone you've never liked putting in thier .02. bah.

papasan chairs are comfy, but i've never seen an attractive one. maybe someone could revamp the design?

sorry your high is gone. i'm an owner of low-level depression so i get it. take care of yourself and make fun things to do. and visit the West Coast! =)
komos From: komos Date: September 18th, 2006 08:47 pm (UTC) (Link)
It's funny how much hold I allow all the people I never liked to have on my life. What, pray, is the deal with that?

I'm still working on the Left Coast trip idea, though I'm finding that I'm fretting over not being able to bring wine on the plane.
cook_ting From: cook_ting Date: September 14th, 2006 08:51 pm (UTC) (Link)
I miss ya, Dr. Beefnuts.

Keep it real and hold it down while you keep on keepin' on, you crazy diamond.
komos From: komos Date: September 18th, 2006 08:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
I can't be sure, but I think you managed to reference the entire progrock opus in two sentences. Dang.

Just dang.
schizohedron From: schizohedron Date: September 15th, 2006 02:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
Sometimes it seems like doubt and self-recrimination are old, familiar friends; no matter how long we're apart, we can always take up right where we left off.

If flesh-and-blood friends filled you with these feelings, what would you do?
komos From: komos Date: September 18th, 2006 08:49 pm (UTC) (Link)
It's easy enough to claim that I'd kick them to the curb, but I'm wondering if that doesn't have something to do with why their voices linger with me. The haunting is the thing that kills ya.
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