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A little less than a happy high
I probably need to get on meds.
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canonfire From: canonfire Date: October 23rd, 2003 07:07 am (UTC) (Link)
oh, god. that icon is priceless. Wait until cinemama sees that! She has a real weakness for dogs in costume. I know not why.

and why the meds?
komos From: komos Date: October 23rd, 2003 07:25 am (UTC) (Link)
Thanks. I'll probably end up redoing it in Photoshop since the resolution is so fuzzy. I still think red ninja and blue ninja trump it, though. ^_^

As for the meds? Despair. Or something. I keep waivering on the issue. What I should do first is to start dosing honey again. I fell off of that for some reason, and the difference is quite noticeable.

I should also try to make some of Buhner's St. John's Wort Beer. Even my 'special friend' got excited when I brought that up.
shutupbetsy From: shutupbetsy Date: October 23rd, 2003 07:11 am (UTC) (Link)
yeessss, join us, join us...
komos From: komos Date: October 23rd, 2003 07:33 am (UTC) (Link)
It feels like capitulating somehow. I fear it.

Consider - the root cause is dissatisfaction with the state of my existence. The feelings the spring from that dissatisfaction fuel further inaction, which in turn bolsters my evaluation of the state of my existence. Lather, rinse, repeat.

To break out of this spiral, I need to step outside of the anger/despair/regret long enough to tend to some of the neglected areas.
transcribe From: transcribe Date: October 23rd, 2003 08:27 am (UTC) (Link)
I urge caution, and careful consideration. The problem with them is that while they help immediately, they take so long to get off of that very often once you've treated and dealt with the major forces that caused you to begin in the first place, you are stuck on them for long after, and then they are *entirely* detrimental.

Have you taken them before with any success? Which ones? Do you trust your Doctor and his/her judgement?

From years of med experience, I urge you to carefully, carefully consider it. Is there *anything* else you can do/try short of going on meds? Maybe a vacation and then changing your lifestyle or components of your life?

There is a great book I can recommend about not taking the med route. Or, if you have any questions that I could answer, feel free to ask. I've just seen meds in my life and many others', do so much more harm than good in the long run.
komos From: komos Date: October 23rd, 2003 02:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks for this.

In order...

I have not. I've generally held onto the idea that modern medical means of messing with my brain chemistry are not necessarily the road I want to travel. My 'special friend' has never really pointed me in that direction, but has talked with me extensively when I've brought it up. Her stance is that if I decide I should try that route, she will do everything she can to facilitate it.

Short answer is yes. I understand how to change the way I feel on an intellectual level, but putting these plans into action is where I tend to stumble. A vacation isn't enough, and changing elements of my lifestyle seem to be temporary fixes. I think I need to stir things up pretty violently.

I'd appreciate the book rec, as well as any sort of guidance or hard-won wisdom you can offer.
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