• Mood: relieved

Much Ado About Nothing

Well, the meeting came and went and it came to little more than a request to police my staff with a mind to increase productivity. While it will require more effort than my present modus operandi of being the supervisor troll who occasionally stirs from his cave when things go horribly, horribly wrong, that’s not necessarily a bad thing. I know that staff morale has suffered horribly in a strange but not unexpected parallel to mine, and change will probably be good. On the upside, A- did say that she thought my group did operate very smoothly.

At any rate, it’s more argument for the taoist idea that worry is ultimately without purpose. Worrying over things you can’t change wastes energy since you can’t change them. Worrying over things you can is a waste of energy because it detracts from energy that could be spent in actually changing them. (agoodshinkickin's folk wisdom about “spit and wishes” presented a very similar idea.)

Sam arrived in Boston on Friday and so far it’s been a lot more relaxed than her visit over Christmas. I’m going to go out on a limb and say that it’s probably because I’m in a better state and, being less volatile, I’m not causing her to feel quite so on edge. Things are just far better when we’re just being ourselves and not agonizing over keeping each other happy or entertained.