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A little less than a happy high
What lies beneath
I'm having difficulty writing of late. The internal censors are fully engaged, and for some reason I'm being hyper-vigilant about not causing upset. It is the calm before the storm, perhaps. Wishful thinking. Wind and rain are generally not the most apt metaphors for my world. I move like the earth. The mountain is a stable edifice until the violence that lies deep within is unleashed. Perhaps a subtle shift for me, but what happens when the earth moves?

I have a hard time accepting change. I have even more difficulty with uncertainty. I can see both.
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hieeee From: hieeee Date: December 27th, 2003 04:17 pm (UTC) (Link)

:: frown ::

i'm sorry to hear that you are feeling this way. i know exactly how you feel though. i go through these phases where i can feel -something- coming . . . and i dread it happening. i wish there was something i could say to make you feel a little more at-ease; i know from personal experience that that is not possible. if there is anything i can do, ask. i'd do anything :)

sometimes the earth moving isn't as bad as we thought it would be . . .
jenarael From: jenarael Date: December 27th, 2003 04:55 pm (UTC) (Link)
Speaking as one who never has any level of certainty (especially when out in the jungle doing a field study), I offer the only bit of wisdom I can: blind faith that whatever happens, we can gain from.

And perhaps, as with many writers, in time some occurence will be impetus for you to want to write again.

But I think we learn a lot from our obstacles and the shifting of the earth -- which, I might add, uncovers soil previously hidden from our eyes.

You know... like the fortune cookies say. :)
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