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A little less than a happy high
Listen up!
The hiatus ends here. I’ve been away from this for the better part of two weeks (three?), and it’s starting to drive me nuts.

First off, no, I don’t keep another journal. Even though most of the time I feel like I’m being too revelatory and somehow breaking some unspoken lj etiquette, this is where I write. I’m tired of reacting (perhaps unjustifiably) to the rumblings about how lj should be used. This is the way that I use the tool. I don’t look at it as some sort of glorified newsgroup, because if that was what I wanted, I would have created some kind of glorified newsgroup. If what I’m doing is somehow over the top for you, you’re welcome to stop reading. I will not feel guilty for writing what comes to mind, even if it’s dark and personal and makes you uncomfortable. That I’ve started writing again after 10 years is pretty remarkable, and I’m going to go about this with or without readers. I’m guessing that as I’m slowly getting back in touch with who I am, it’s not necessarily going to be a pretty process. You’re welcome to share if you are so inclined.

That said, if there is something I am certain I don’t want the general public reading, it becomes a private post. I will do this for me and not for you. I’ve given enough ammunition for folks to decide that I’m some sort of maladjusted creep without letting the total dross of my psyche seep into public domain. This might be shocking, but occasionally, when I’m really angry or really frightened, I say things I don’t entirely mean. I’m not going to spam you all with that. Depression and anxiety you can have. Outright feral rage is all mine.

(NOTE: There are other reasons I've not been posting, and I'll talk about those eventually. I needed to rant.)

Current Mood: cranky cranky
Current Music: Radiohead, "Packt Like Sardines in a Crushd Tin Box"

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From: basha Date: March 28th, 2002 02:03 pm (UTC) (Link)
Glad to see you back! And glad you use this resource like you wanna. I stick my tounge out at those who think you shouldn't.
And I say neener. NEENER.
komos From: komos Date: March 28th, 2002 02:15 pm (UTC) (Link)


I always wondered how that would look in print. ;)
From: (Anonymous) Date: March 29th, 2002 07:18 am (UTC) (Link)


I was begining to think you'd jumped off a bridge or something. I'm very glad to see that ain't the case.

And can I ask what the point of a journal is if not to rant? Rant away!

komos From: komos Date: March 29th, 2002 07:33 am (UTC) (Link)

On Bridges and Such

Nah, not my style, though I've been wondering much the same of you.
From: (Anonymous) Date: March 29th, 2002 07:52 am (UTC) (Link)

Hear, Hear!

I heartily agree with Basha! Write what you want and/or need to write. Journals belong to their authors, no one else, and should reflect the personalities of those authors. Do what you will with yours and I shall support you at every turn. Ever yours, Samantha
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