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If we can’t agree that the world is not ready for a white man with dreadlocks, would you at least concede that a balding white man with dreadlocks is probably a little over the top?

The crew at Second Circle served up superb comfort food for dinner last night. In spite of any of agoodshinkickin’s protests to the contrary, her meatloaf was really good. Afterwards, I hung out until late gabbing about anything that came to mind, and we even strayed into the frightening territory of game theory for a while. In case you’re wondering, we’re ok… having survived the experience in spite of a whole hour of extreme geekitude. All told, it was decidedly more entertaining than my typical prostrations before the deities of the magic box. If any of you get to reading this, I love you guys. Really.

So anyway, I’m not feeling quite so helpless this morning. I still didn’t get enough sleep, and I drifted into the office a little later than I should, but it’s ok. I walked to Davis this morning. I have a clear sense of what I need to be doing, both today and in a broader sense, and what I’m currently capable of. Honestly, I don’t know what to make of it, but I'm working on it.

A random thought I came across yesterday:

The only reason that we don't open our hearts and minds to other people is that they trigger confusion in us that we don't feel brave enough or sane enough to deal with. To the degree that we look clearly and compassionately at ourselves, we feel confident and fearless about looking into someone else's eyes. -Ane Pema Chodron

Current Mood: peaceful peaceful
Current Music: The Strokes, "Last Night"

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From: uruz Date: April 3rd, 2002 07:50 am (UTC) (Link)
I feel strangely removed from all of this. Probably because you guys don't want to disturb the frothing basement troll... so unless it's something personal, invite me next time, wouldya? While daoc is entertaining, spending time with people is even moreso.
komos From: komos Date: April 3rd, 2002 08:22 am (UTC) (Link)
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Well, for starters, I'm not accustomed to inviting folks to dinners that I'm not hosting. By now, you should be aware of my obsession with propriety, and that sort of thing just seems in bad form.

That said, I honestly don't think there's any reason to take this personally. I shared with K- in an email exchange that I was feeling a bit starved for human contact and dinner plans just sort of evolved from there. I'm sorry if you feel excluded... It was more incidental than intentional.

I'm really not keen on feeling guilty over this. I mean, it's not like I've been invited to everything you've done with other people we know.
From: uruz Date: April 3rd, 2002 08:25 am (UTC) (Link)
I never said you had to feel guilty over it. I was just wondering why we haven't been keeping up with going out to dinner, or hanging out, or whatever.

Forget I said anything.
komos From: komos Date: April 3rd, 2002 08:50 am (UTC) (Link)
Forget I said anything.

I'm not entirely keen on that either. I'm guessing that you probably wouldn't have posted if you thought things were cool, and I seriously didn't mean to bum you out.

I don't know why we've not been hangin' out... There's nothing directly preventing it, so I'm guessing that it's a combination of our being busy and/or distracted, and (on my end at least) I have this weirdness about imposing on people. I think I've mentioned before that just calling friends takes something of an act of will on my part. I'm sorry if I'm somehow giving the impression that I don't want to talk to you. It's not true.
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