May 12th, 2003

The gentleman is always properly dressed

You are (x6)

I keep having dreams where at some point, I am corresponding with shutupbetsy online discussing her theories about relationships and things people go through when they’re in them. This is peripheral to anything else that is happening and has never been the central thrust of whatever dream I’m in at the time. I'll be going along and then just decide that it's time to check my email. I'll read something she’s written, squeeze off a reply and then go back to whatever it was I was doing before.

All of this is very odd since I've had no contact with her outside of lj, and I can’t say that I have any idea about her guiding principles for conducting relationships (or even if she'd be willing to share.) Weirder, somehow Coldplay’s Clocks seems to play a big part in the discussion-in-dream, though I haven’t in 'real life' deciphered any of the lyrics outside of "Confusion never stops, closing walls and ticking clocks." The whole thing is like a dream-encoded non-sequitur that makes perfect sense until I wake up. So confusing.

And, to make matters worse, I've had the song on near permanent loop in my head and I don’t know the words.

Oh, another one for riverbank:

Dreams are real while they are happening. Can we say anymore about life?
- Havelock Ellis
  • Current Music
    Coldplay, "Clocks"
The gentleman is always properly dressed

I just do what the voices in my head tell me

I sequestered myself this weekend. Kudos to c_m_i for his attempts to draw me from my bolt-hole, but I ended up begging off of both Friday and Saturday evening out. There was no particular reason aside from being home and actually enjoying the time I spent alone. For a change, I actually felt comfortable in my own skin, and I wanted to take a little time to enjoy that sensation before returning to the company of others. Since I had had a busy week both at work and otherwise, I figured that friends would forgive my taking a weekend and being selfish with it. ^_^

Last week was also an expensive week. In the aftermath, I’m thinking about taking F. up on his offer so I can pick up some extra cash on the side. The idea of a second job has always struck me as sub-optimal, but I’m starting to think that I need to make a push towards financial sanity for my overall well being. Even if I could do it a few months to clear away my "frivolous" debt, it would be a huge step in the right direction.

It’s weird thinking like an adult.
  • Current Music
    Still Coldplay