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A little less than a happy high
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why_style From: why_style Date: May 26th, 2005 04:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
as i said to chillguru the other day: "the number one tenet of buddhism is 'life it suffering.' this shit's supposed to be hard." that said, it doesn't mean we should be suffering every moment. at least you've got priorities that sound like they make sense. "work, finances, relationships, my health" are, in fact, important things.

i often find it tough to distinguish between what i actually should be worrying about and what would be better left to roll off my back (you know, like a wet duck or something). i tend to obsess over stupid little things while doing nothing about the real issues. take sleeping for instance- i obsess over my sleep cycles and the exact minute i need to fall asleep so as to get the perfect amount of sleep (ironically, i worry to the point where it keeps me up), yet i've put off replacing a mattress that's been past its prime for a good two years now and makes my sleep torturous. i make no sense.

so as one who makes no sense speaking to one who does, let me say this: when i'm stressed, i usually find it comforting to think that were i to get hit by a bus on my way to work, these problems would cease to be (important anyway).
komos From: komos Date: May 26th, 2005 08:18 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hrmmm... There have been times when I wish I was going to be hit by a bus on the way to work. Not exactly constructive thinking, to be sure.

I will say this, though... despite any fantasies of suffering some kind of traumatic accidental injury, I've never actually been suicidal. It's really just not my thing. I'm more quietly self-destructive.
why_style From: why_style Date: May 27th, 2005 01:07 pm (UTC) (Link)
well, i didn't really mean you should fantasize about getting hit by a bus (though i admit i've had plenty of those days too), i was more saying that sometimes minimizing oneself in the scope of the universe is a helpful way to minimize the worries as well. i suppose i didn't have to be so morbid, but i was implying a change of perspective. work, finances, etc. are important, but only within a certain context- sometimes it's as simple as proximity. like you, when i'm stressed out i have a hard time doing anything functional to deal with it, but i've found that if i don't think of the problems in such dire terms, it's often easier to let go of things to the point where i can actually deal with them constructively.

i think often our problems are based in the bullshit we're fed as kids. for instance, the line about finding what you love to do and how the only way to have a fulfilling life is to have a job that matches your passions. personally, i like that's a bit of crap. for one, i think 90%+ of people have a job that will make them money so they can survive in our society- it has nothing to do with passion. and secondly, i'm not sure i'd want to take something i enjoy and turn it into a job. one reason i've resisted trying to turn my musical interests into a career is that i don't want to ruin music by making it work- i like that it's a hobby, a refuge, something i can enjoy just to enjoy without a connection to capitalistic existence.
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