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DOA - A little less than a happy high
komos
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The night before, I dreamt that I was to undergo surgery for a cardiac arrhythmia. Mind you, I've only the vaguest understanding of the condition, but it was what I had, and I was laid out on a table in an OR for it. The first thing my doctor did was to set up a cardiac catheter, sending the line up the artery in my left leg without anesthesia. I can't claim to remember the pain, but I do very vividly recall a white-hot blast that overwhelmed my senses and had me begging for her to hurry or for it to be over or something. I was breathing in bursts. My heart was racing. None of it made sense.

When she finished, I started to calm down until I saw one of the residents looming over me with a pair of defibrilator pads. He said, "CLEAR" and hit me just as I began to ask, "Isn't it dangerous to use those on someone whose heart is still beating?" I flatlined, and I freaked out so much about flatlining that the next thing I knew I was standing by the table, looking at my body, and trying to convince my doctor that something had to be wrong.

"Of course you're not dead," she insisted. "If you were, I couldn't be talking to you now."
I pointed out the atonal drone of the EKG as though that were more convincing than my being able to point to my unoccupied body. We argued while nurses pounded brightly colored pegs into my body "to immobilize it" for the surgery. Soon, there was a Code called somewhere else in the ER, and the whole staff left to tend to the emergency.

I stood there in disbelief, and realizing that no one was coming back and that the dream couldn't possibly come to any positive conclusion, I forced myself to wake up.
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tenillypo From: tenillypo Date: September 9th, 2005 10:52 am (UTC) (Link)
Dude!
komos From: komos Date: September 9th, 2005 11:00 am (UTC) (Link)
Seriously.
clayrobeson From: clayrobeson Date: September 9th, 2005 10:59 am (UTC) (Link)
Brightly colored pegs.... you're TOTALLY a LiteBrite! :D
komos From: komos Date: September 9th, 2005 11:01 am (UTC) (Link)
Like that doesn't freak me out more...
clayrobeson From: clayrobeson Date: September 9th, 2005 11:05 am (UTC) (Link)
Doh! It was supposed to make you laugh. :)
komos From: komos Date: September 9th, 2005 11:40 am (UTC) (Link)
It's just that I looked like a fricken' lite brite, man.
starflow From: starflow Date: September 9th, 2005 11:01 am (UTC) (Link)
Wow.
komos From: komos Date: September 9th, 2005 11:02 am (UTC) (Link)
... to the EXTREME!!!!1!!1
starflow From: starflow Date: September 9th, 2005 11:06 am (UTC) (Link)
Even your DREAMS are hardcore, man! HARD-FUCKING-CORE!!
komos From: komos Date: September 9th, 2005 11:41 am (UTC) (Link)
Now I just need a HARDCORE name to go with my EXTREME personna.
starflow From: starflow Date: September 9th, 2005 11:48 am (UTC) (Link)
Too bad Dog the Bounty Hunter is already taken. :(
komos From: komos Date: September 9th, 2005 11:48 am (UTC) (Link)
Plus, I don't know if I can pull off the mullet.
cosmicserpent From: cosmicserpent Date: September 9th, 2005 11:41 am (UTC) (Link)
nice dream. fucked, but nice.
komos From: komos Date: September 9th, 2005 11:43 am (UTC) (Link)
It has everything - flotsam from work, latent health fears, bizarre sexual tension...
From: corvus_coronis Date: September 9th, 2005 01:41 pm (UTC) (Link)
Intense dream.
komos From: komos Date: September 9th, 2005 08:37 pm (UTC) (Link)
When I go, I like to go big.

'SPLODEY!!!
sinspired From: sinspired Date: September 10th, 2005 02:37 am (UTC) (Link)
...
Just to let me know, completely unrelatedly, and I wouldn't say if I thought the mutual friend of mine and the others person were here...
But I had a conversation tonight where the other woman explained to me how she knows she's going to die when they have to operate on her again for that problem with her heart.
...
And I didn't connect these until now.
komos From: komos Date: September 11th, 2005 09:34 pm (UTC) (Link)
I would think that knowing when you were going to shuffle off this mortal coil would either be extremely nervewracking or kind of calming.

Not sure which. I'll get back to you.
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