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No one will see the world in the same way as you - A little less than a happy high
komos
komos
No one will see the world in the same way as you
I pulled up to Sanford Camera Repair at the precise moment that the proprietor was locking his door, and by the time I pulled the Canon out of my bag, the lights were closed. I stood there next to my car, camera in hand and barely noticing that the day's cold had turned bitter, not knowing what to do. My lens cap had come off - it never did stay on very well - and looking down at the cockeyed way the focal unit was sitting in the assembly housing, it occurred to me that this camera may be a lost cause. Three generations and at least 4 megapixels obsolete, the base repair cost quoted is almost enough to buy new and well over the highest price I found on eBay.

It's all so disappointing on many levels. I'm still kicking myself for being careless enough to let this happen. Given that starting "the 400" was a high point in an otherwise trying week, I can't say as the timing of the accident could be much worse. To top it, it's unlikely that I'll be able in good faith to satisfy my near-primal urge to repair and reuse. This machine had a lot of life in it still, but I probably can't bring it back.

There aren't too many things to which I get so attached - my camera, my computer, my car, my kitchen knives. Because of the freedom they afford and the ways in which I'm able to express myself through them, they come to feel like extensions of that self. To have to retire one, even knowing that there's something better ready to replace it, is difficult. To have to retire one because of my own carelessness? Then it feels like I've failed something very fundamental.
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transcribe From: transcribe Date: February 24th, 2007 04:46 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm sorry. Does it help to look at it from the perspective that it's simply time for a new creative relationship for you? On some level some part of you made that decision of carelessness, and the reason may be a very, very good one, you just can't know yet. Have faith that on some level you are taking care of you.

What kind of knives do you use??
komos From: komos Date: February 25th, 2007 10:26 pm (UTC) (Link)
It's already in process. I needed to give voice to that even as I started looking at D30s. Graduating to an SLR a big step, and I don't know I would have seriously considered it with a serviceable camera.

I've a mix of Henckels, the best being of the "Professional S" series. In some ways, I like balance of the Wusthoff Classic, but the blade geometry of the Henckels seems to be better suited to the way I work.
clayrobeson From: clayrobeson Date: February 24th, 2007 05:46 am (UTC) (Link)
Look at it as an opportunity to get another camera that you can grow into.

Yes, yes, bright side to everything, I know... but sometimes, in the long run, you'll end up sexier.
komos From: komos Date: February 25th, 2007 10:28 pm (UTC) (Link)
One day, I will be as sexy as you, sir.

Sorry I didn't say sooner, but happy b-day! Watch your mail.
clayrobeson From: clayrobeson Date: February 26th, 2007 06:23 am (UTC) (Link)
YAY birthday!

Thank you. :)
canonfire From: canonfire Date: February 24th, 2007 10:56 am (UTC) (Link)

if you see the buddha on the street, kill him. And steal his tacos.

I'm terribly sorry. I would feel the same if I had broken my left hand during Lent and could not write or type. At the risk of sounding trite or sanctimonious (and you know me well enough that I would never be that way with you) and, of course, offering little comfort, Lent is a time for breaking things.

Our plans have changed slightly for today. We are driving down without our third friend to Comic Con. I do not know exactly when we will be back in the New Heaven, but if you tell us your plans, our planets can pass each other more closely.
komos From: komos Date: February 25th, 2007 10:31 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: if you see the buddha on the street, kill him. And steal his tacos.

The prospect of pain on top of not being able to pursue my art kind of puts things in a different light. Perspective offers a great deal of comfort.

Sorry I missed you guys yesterday. Everything ok?

canonfire From: canonfire Date: February 27th, 2007 04:30 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: if you see the buddha on the street, kill him. And steal his tacos.

Yeah. I hear that.

Sorry to take so long to respond. We ended up staying there a lot later than we thought (we went through a second time and discovered that the massive crowds earlier had hidden at least half of the show). We ended up getting home quite late.

You wanna help someone move this weekend? I'll be out of town, though...
laughingwoman From: laughingwoman Date: February 24th, 2007 01:45 pm (UTC) (Link)

perceived failure = permission granted

seconded and thirded. lent is a time for breaking things, and so is mercury retrograde. i know the frustration of denying yourself an essential you tool; and inconvenient as it may be, i think transcribe is right: this happening may have been your own unconscious way of giving yourself permission to get something better.

you were just saying how 4MP was limiting...now you could get something that gave you RAW capabilities (which I would highly recommend).

komos From: komos Date: February 25th, 2007 10:36 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: perceived failure = permission granted

Thanks. I've been using RAW format with the G3, and I hope with good effect.

What are your thoughts about the D30? What do you shoot with?
laughingwoman From: laughingwoman Date: February 26th, 2007 03:17 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: perceived failure = permission granted

i wasn't sure at what level of megapixels RAW worked; i think you've most certainly been working to good effect with what you've had.

i recently came to acquire a nikon d80, and i loves it. i'm still learning its ins-and-outs, and it is my first digital that i've owned (i've borrowed more than a few). that said, if i hadn't been "given" this camera as a fabulous gift from my parents, and i had the money and the druthers, i might have gotten a d-30 instead. i like how canon "thinks" about its cameras more; they are more intuitive to use, the CMOS sensor is a big deal, their optics are way good (tho you're into nitpicking to compare quality against nikon). do you ever read dpreview.com? they are my first source for camera reviews, comparisons, unbiased reporting on pros and cons of any system. the in-depth review of the d-30 is here.

happy buying!!! and then happy shooting!
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komos From: komos Date: February 25th, 2007 10:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
No way, but like most people, I'm far harder on myself than I am on any of my friends.
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