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Suffering for art?
The ceramics class I mentioned begins tonight. The instructor is a wheel-throwing instructor and studio technician at the School of the Museum of Fine Arts. My Thursday evenings will be occupied for the next seven weeks or so as I see if I can’t rekindle some of the feeling I had while I was kicking around in the studio at BC.

That’s not what I wanted to share.

What I wanted to share is that it took an act of will to make the call to BCAE and register for the course. It’s going to take another to walk across the parks and go to the class. What finally decided this for me was that I felt as afraid as I did do. It’s funny, really. I’m going to do something I loved which, on some level is just like playing with mud, and I’m as terrified as I felt at the end of my dream this morning. Why? Is it because I’m afraid that if I find something else I love, it will just be another vulnerability? Something else that can be taken away from me? It’s so easy to become trapped.

I’m going anyway.

Current Mood: determined determined

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wisdom_seeker From: wisdom_seeker Date: May 8th, 2003 03:41 pm (UTC) (Link)

I don't know what to say that won't sound too cheeky or too serious. I'm just happy you're going to go for you. Good luck with the class.
komos From: komos Date: May 8th, 2003 07:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yeah, I don't know that there is much too say. I tend to find things I do intensely personal, and sometimes I get edgyif people even take notice.

I'm a weird kid.
From: (Anonymous) Date: May 8th, 2003 05:06 pm (UTC) (Link)
to see you aren't alone:

http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/ASIN/0961454733/qid=1052438583/sr=2-1/ref=sr_2_1/104-8810628-4419144

Good luck.
komos From: komos Date: May 8th, 2003 07:10 pm (UTC) (Link)
I may have to add this to my list of must reads. Thanks.

Wish I knew who you were. So-?
clay_cats From: clay_cats Date: May 8th, 2003 10:50 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hope that you have the time of you life. :)
komos From: komos Date: May 9th, 2003 07:04 am (UTC) (Link)

Thanks. ^_^

I was talking with my friend, So-, about this the other night. I can say this: I don't know that I'll ever be magnificent (I'm rather convinced that I do not have an artist's sight), but I really do enjoy the work. It's fascinating to me.
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