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A little less than a happy high
komos
komos
Early work
I got my first piece back from glazing last night.* It’s a small tea bowl that grew from one of my first nights on the wheel. I found it on the shelf and just stood there for the longest time looking at it, noticing every last detail. The lip is uneven. There’s a slight ridge at the bottom of the bowl that I should have raised into the wall. The walls themselves have slight imperfections throughout. The trimming was a little off-centered. The glaze worked brilliantly inside the bowl, but the exterior is uneven and kind of splotchy. It was just too thin in parts.

But best of all? It’s glorious. I made it. It’s perfect for what it is.** That I’m even able to see these things is amazing. I’m thinking critically without criticizing. As a side note, the hard-to-impress roomie even thought it was very cool.


*Or, at least, the first piece that didn’t go missing after bisque. I’m missing two early bowl attempts as well as another tea bowl that I was pretty happy about.
**I’d love to share here… don’t suppose I could convince anyone to host an image or two for me?

Current Music: Neko Case, "Ghost Writing"

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shutupbetsy From: shutupbetsy Date: June 20th, 2003 07:12 am (UTC) (Link)
I don't know how sad you should be, considering "apropos of nothing" is a quote from the Sheryl Crow song "All I wanna Do."

ha. Well, okay, maybe not.

me too. sucks. sorry.
komos From: komos Date: June 20th, 2003 07:20 am (UTC) (Link)
I find it hysterical that the pop set utterly missed the point of that song. It's really quite tragic... in a Leaving Los Vegas sort of way.

Thanks. Just having a hard time reconciling to things I need to do, grieving for lost time, that sort of thing...

Sorry you're there too.
shutupbetsy From: shutupbetsy Date: June 20th, 2003 07:29 am (UTC) (Link)
yeah, it's amazing how ignoring practical things can make one feel so deeply and artistically tragic. I've been driving without insurance since April. ugh.
komos From: komos Date: June 20th, 2003 07:48 am (UTC) (Link)
Strictly practical... Careful with that. Should 'the man' take notice, your car will be impounded and you'll have to make a court appearance. (And yes, I'm speaking from experience.)

Otherwise, yes, absolutely. I've often thought that a great deal of the crisis that surrounds me is directly resultant of me being careless or just not paying attention. The big thing for me has been figuring out why I feel the need to keep myself in a state of permanent imbalance. I'm standing in my own way, and it's killing me.
shutupbetsy From: shutupbetsy Date: June 20th, 2003 08:22 am (UTC) (Link)
ugh. yeah. court appearance doesn't sound like fun.
I spent a lot of time with my therapist wrestling with trying to understand why my negligence could so impact my self esteem. I guess deep down I do actually care about this stuff. permanent imbalance--that I understand. But I wonder if it really is your fault. I'm not a drug pusher, but I learned some interesting stuff the year I was actually being treated. 1. If you have more than three episodes of major depression, untreated, the likelyhood that it will reoccur is some percentile in the 90s. 2. If you're not depressed, anti-depressants won't affect your mood, so if you take them and it does, then you're depressed. 3. The longer depression goes untreated, the worse the reoccurance will be.
Not trying to preach, just thought those were good things to share. I'm not totally sold on therapy, at least I think it's hard to find a good match, but Celexa has helped me feel less imbalanced.
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komos From: komos Date: June 20th, 2003 07:42 am (UTC) (Link)
Je ne comprends pas. J'ai écrit deux fois avant neuf heures.
wisdom_seeker From: wisdom_seeker Date: June 20th, 2003 12:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
But best of all? It’s glorious. I made it. It’s perfect for what it is.** That I’m even able to see these things is amazing. I’m thinking critically without criticizing.

This is wonderful. I can't wait to see the bowl.
komos From: komos Date: June 20th, 2003 12:44 pm (UTC) (Link)
Still need to take pics and either find a host or figure out how to use the space I'm supposedly given through my ISP.

Since I don't seem to have people chomping at the bit to host for me, the latter is probably wisest.
wisdom_seeker From: wisdom_seeker Date: June 20th, 2003 12:52 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm sure you already know this, but if I had any idea how to access the web-space I supposedly have, I would give you some :-)
guitarcries From: guitarcries Date: June 20th, 2003 08:41 pm (UTC) (Link)
I could host a couple images for you... just e-mail em to me and I'll shoot ya back the links once I've got them up there.
komos From: komos Date: June 23rd, 2003 11:39 am (UTC) (Link)
Thanks. That'd be super cool. Let me see if I can't figure out what gis.net has to offer me. I'm sure it's just a matter of reading documentation and figuring out where to upload to, but I become lazy and technophobic every once in a while.

I'll keep you posted.
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